What happened there?

What's your next move?

What happened there is that Alina, Nay and Monica are sloppy players. I am not saying that with arrogance, or maybe I am? But the thing is, if you do want to pull off a real blindside or make a move like that and be applauded for it, or at least respected for it by me. Learn the art first.

Nay told me about that alliance and Paloma spilled that shit to Brenda and Brenda told me. I already called out Monica and Alina about that shit, so it was on the table in the air already. If they really wanted to get us or pull of an epic blindside, acting shady in TC, telling people you didn't write their name down but not who you voted and Nay just being a dumbass who spilled shit to me, made it very anti-climatic.

That TC and their behavior and silence was enough to know what was going on. I have pulled off some blindsides in my day and the people I delivered them to, had no idea they were leaving until the votes were being read. As it should be in a blindside.

But whatever, that might be cocky, but I don't give a fuck. I came into this and all AllStar games with a huge fucking target on my back. I made the end of every All Star game I have ever been in, 2 times last juror and last time I made F3 but missed FTC because my mother was in the hospital. But shit happens. I know my reputation is huge, it's my biggest obstacle in these things. So I am not surprised shit got real here, I just thought I'd have a couple rounds of buffering before that started. I was wrong.

My next move is self-preservation. I'd like to save Erinn and Coach too, but I don't think that's going to be possible unless we win two challenges in a row. Brenda said she'd have Cristina take me, but that might not even pan out. So my biggest tool is my social game and my ability to heartfuck some bitches. I am not sure it will work, they may see through it or boot me because I am trying so hard, it can literally go either way. But it's all I have to work with.

I sent heartfucking PMs to Alina, Monica and Nay. Those are the people I need to not vote me. If I can get them back/on my side. I could be ok? I know Monica is more cutthroat than the other two, but it's so early, there is honestly no benefit for them booting me right now. But their logic and mine are two entirely different things, so I am not holding out that much hope.

I will say this, IF I do make it past a few more rounds or even merge, I will make sure I fuck every single one of them. I will do everything with every bit of power I pray I may have to avenage Taj. She didn't deserve to go out that early and certainly not over Corinne. And Erinn and Coach don't deserve it either, so maybe we'll be ok but who the fuck knows.

<333333 Yea it's hard as a host for me to see all of the players in the game that I want to see succeed and know that one of them HAS to be voted out, they can't all make the end. I'm sure it's equally as hard playing with those people and having ot put trust in them and then being betrayed cannot feel good.

In Malaysia it's no secret you were cutthroat and in control of a powerful alliance for the first half of the game. What's it like being on the other side of that now and are you up for the challenge of turning it around?

lolwut? That's a secret to me. I hosted Malaysia from F20 to F10/9ish? I can't remember. But I certainly didn't control any alliances in that. Not that I remember anyway.

None of the heartfucking worked, except on Alina and Nay, whcih I expected. I figured they would at least keep me for a round and boot Coach. So that may have been good.

Cristina says she will take me tonight and tbh I am so happy, but at the same time I am so fucking heartbroken for my Erinn. Erinn in this game is like Tracy in the last one now. She is my partner and I love her. She saved my ass tonight, literally. These idiots wanting her out when she is so amazing just baffles me. But then, I understand they are scared of her. If I didn't love and respect her so much, I would be too. But I don't usually get threatened by threats. I always align with them, plus it's just a given they ARE the better players. That is why they want her/us out. lol

So now, I am praying that this tribe wins again tomorrow so I can take her with me. I know it's fucked up, but the vote being between her and I, I would just tell them to vote me. I am like that with my allies and especially in Stranded. This game really does remind me hella of that merge. It's eerie.

Also, Monica can get fucked. I am done with her. I may not even reply to her ever again.

THANK FUCKING GOD AND CRISTINA <3