I just think that you, Cat, could have tied it up. You were immune, you had nothing to lose from giving me the opportunity to fight it out. Not only were your dishonest, which is ridiculous in itself because you've been nothing but a liar from Katie's boot, but you didn't even HAVE to be dishonest. You could have given me the chance to fight it out and still not been at risk of being eliminated. But instead you went out of your way to lie to me, and then take me out.

You both (Lisi, Cat) made a decision and that's fine. But you don't get to ask for forgiveness while digging a knife in my back. You get the game or you get my loyalty and you chose the game.

It stings a lot, to have been so dependent on people and have them be so blatantly dishonest time and time again. Especially you, Cat. Especially. You have literally not done a single thing you said you would do since Final 6, and you know what? You don't even have the balls to just come out and be proud of it. At least Brenda was honest about the fact she was playing a dishonest game. You just stab someone in the back and then tell them 'oh, it wasn't my fault, i'm so sorry boo hoo feel bad for me.' You can't be a liar AND get a sympathy vote, it doesn't work like that.

You have every right to be bitter at me, I am not even going to argue with you about that. I have things to explain and reasons for doing and saying them. But this is not the time, nor the place to do so, I will explain my game and the shit I did and said and why I did and said it at FTC. But just know, I had to play the game, Yul. I had to keep myself safe and positioned. I had to play the way I did to get myself to the end.

I know that I hurt you and broke my word, but I am not looking for sympathy from anyone. I am not playing that as a card with you or anyone else. I geniunely feel bad for fucking you over, especially right at the end.