So, what happened there?

Where do you suspect the majority changed? And how are you going to adjust to that?

Also, what made you last-minute switch your vote from Yul to Brenda?

A beautiful clusterfuck. Seriously. I hate everyone in this game. I'm so furious. I don't even want to talk to anyone. I kind of want to go MIA for awhile and hope they don't vote me out. They are all fucking cunts. I hope they all choke or their computers crash or something. I FUCKING HATE THEM. I'm not kidding. I'm enraged. Everything I've done for everyone and this is how they fucking pay me. Fuck them dead. I swear.

I don't even know what's my plan Helen. I'm so blinded by my rage that I can't even put 2 and 2 together. This fucking sucks. I was completely blindsided and now my Monica is gone. I had a perfect plan and I was hoping it would work. It would have put me on the drivers seat all the way to the finals. I'm heartbroken.

We had agreed on voting for Brenda originally. And then Yul dared Katie to vote for him so I decided to switch back. I'm so mad. :( This really sucks.

Right now nobody is messaging me so I'm guessing I am on the chopping block tonight. I kind of want to give up but I've come so far to just quit like this. I'm pist. Like I want my revenge so bad. And I want to win SO bad. Like I want to finally win my first game. I know I'm not a bad player. I know it. :(

Alina thinks that it's either me or Erinn tonight. Yul seems wanting to boot Erinn but do I believe that? No. He was told I was wanting to blindside him last night. It's quiet obvious that he should come for me since I attempted to get him out but at the same time, I'm completely powerless. So at this point I'm waiting for people to approach me and I'll go from there. I'm not in a power position to dictate any moves like Paloma's boot. This sucks. I thought I had the game locked down. I'm so delusional. Lol.

People really feel that safe that they haven't messaged me?! Really? This is beyond me. I mean it makes it SO obvious that I'm being booted tonight unless I win immunity.

I'm tempted to just quit at TC tonight. I don't want them to vote me out. I don't even want to be a juror. Yes, I'm that fucking bitter. And I don't give a fuck what people think. If you don't like it fuck off and die.

Ugh this game needs to fucking end now. I'm so done. I don't even want to fight to stay. I have so many mixed feelings. I can't get it together.

And I still don't have a plan or clue what I'm about to do...30 minutes into the start of tonight.

Did the day of rest give you an opportunity to cool off and get back in the game? Or (like me generally) have you retained your lividness to live another day so as to do wonders for angst and migraines?

I've cooled down. But I know that anything can happen at this point and probably will happen. I'm trying to see if anyone will actually reach out to me, wanting me to vote with them or not. We'll see.