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Congratulations on a 1-in-6 shot of winning the game!
Thanks, Helen. But I think my odds are less than that right now. I am so fucked. This sucks, because I was insanely invested in this game. I know I don't confess much and I know how much that sucks from the other end. But I have been insanely busy and I suck. :/
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After possibly the most chaotic TC yet, any musings or regrets about the situation?
I don't regret the move, as much as I regret not telling Katie and Yul we should actually try that after we decided we would. I regret putting Katie in that danger. Because I honestly love Katie and I never meant to hurt her or fuck her over. Time and time again, I have told Brenda that I want to stay with her and Yul. That I wanted that with them. And I worked with both of them so much and tried so hard to keep those relationships and trust. I actually thought I was making final 4 with them. I don't regret it also because I don't know if I could have voted for Erinn. But we could have voted Alina to try the flushing plan too. Cus look, the idol would have been gone and someone we've not technically worked with. Then Erinn stays again and we'd be amazing for taking out another HII. But no, it got so fucked up and Brenda in that TC, casting her vote that early? I don't even know.. I know she's wanted Katie out too, cus she thought Katie was a threat.
She also thinks we'll be fine. She is in for a huge suprise. We are fucked. And it's probably me and not her, because she gets a HII probably and they will be scared to boot her.
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Who do you want to head to the endgame with for a strong shot at winning? Who do you need to work with this round to get there?
I am not trying to be completely negative, but I am being real. I am not getting to the end game. It's just not happening anymore. Maybe it never was anyway? But it felt like it might for a bit there.
I need to work with Brenda/Erinn/Alina. But that's not happening. I think the vote will tie. I just sent Alina a heartfucking PM. I hope she goes for it. But I don't think she will. She and I haven't played together in this game and I don't expect for that to change. I would actually love to help her get further, but I think she'll be fine regardless.
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How do your relationships with Alina, Lisi, and Yul vary at this point? Who would you stand the best chance of having a truthful conversation or coalition with?
Alina and I have a complex relationship. We're at F6 and we've never voted together. And I don't image we'll start now. But I do think she'd tell me the truth and I still kind of trust her, I don't what it is.
Lisi, where do I start? Her social game is atrocious and she's so transparent it's ridiculous. She only ever PMs me 5-10 words, if that. And the only time she's actually PMed me regularly, was when she needed my vote. I can't stand her and she sucks. I wish she was as awesome as she was in Madagascar, but she's just nothing like that Lisi. I don't actually give a shit about her, which is why I don't mind voting for her in general.
With Yul, I have always laid it on too thick with him and I know it. I was conciously doing it and that was stupid. I knew I'd been overdoing it and that was to make him feel safe, but I know it was probably annoying and transparent? I don't fucking know. But I honestly do feel bad and didn't want to fuck him over. But he'll never believe that now.
I am just over it all. I am hurt that my game is fucked. I knew it would be. I knew that move was wrong. But I did it anyway and as much as I hate my position now, I totally deserve it.
