My thoughts and feelings on booting Monica were fucking amazing. God, that was so great. Everything fell perfectly into place for me for the first time in this game. Erinn winning that immunity was all we needed for that to happen and I am so glad it did. And especially it being Monica. I mean, not just because she's dangerous and shit. But because she sucked in this game. She really came in this totally against working with Brenda, Erinn and I because of who we are outside of the game. No other reason. So fuck her. Good riddance. I didn't even say shit when she left, because I did not care about her in this game.
Right after that challenge and before TC, things were popping. Me/Yul/Danie/Brenda were scrambling to grab Erinn's vote to get shit done, because Katie wasn't here and pre-voted Erinn. We absolutely needed Erinn's vote to make shit work and not tie. Then while all this is going on, Nay sends a group PM to Brenda/Erinn and I asking if we were looking for options.
She told us all that if we wanted to use our idol to get someone out, she would help. So I asked her who we should use it on and who should we vote. She said Brenda needed to be saved and that Yul should be our vote. Erinn didn't even respond to the PMs lol It was hilarious, but Brenda and I did. And then Katie was so amazing in that TC asking who to vote. Then she votes Alina. That was hilarious, really a great TC. So Monica leaves 5-4-1 and it was glorious.
Now, moving on to the aftermath. I am in a precarious and weird position here. Paloma leaving ensured that the Me/Katie/Brenda/Yul/Daniel alliance would actually come together.
So now, I have that alliance of 5 rolling hard. The thing is, Katie, Brenda and I want Nay out tonight. But Yul and Daniel want Erinn out. And I just want to save Erinn a little longer, I want to see her outlast those idiots who wouldn't give us a chance here. But it's probably not happening and Erinn leaves tonight. I am not sure if I can cast a vote for her. :/ That's going to be hard.
But I know it's better for my game if I do. Yul wants to see us do it, he's mentioned as much last round after we didn't vote Paloma. So hopefully Erinn wins immunity again so we can boot Nay, but lightning doesn't strike twice, so Erinn is most likely leaving. That's too, if these people aren't lying to me. Who the fuck knows.
In other news.. Yesterday morning, Yul approached me about what happens at F5 and that Brenda and I probably aren't comfortable getting into a Final 5 with those 3. I actually was/am comfortable. Because I don't think they all want to sit together. I don't think it's strong enough of a group where they are playing for loyalty and nothing else. I play this way, yes. But Brenda and Daniel? They don't, that's clear as fuck.
Then today, Katie and Daniel approached me as well. Daniel wants to work together at the F5 and sit together, I don't know if I buy that. But Katie brought up better shit. She's willing to cut Yul if need be and sit with us and Daniel. She's got lots of open plans and options. I really am loving playing this game with her.
I do not want to betray this alliance or turn on them and go back to/with Alina, Nay or do anything with Lisi. I know Brenda might want to change gears. But I don't want to. I think this fits right now and is our best way to end game. And I don't enjoy making promises I can't keep, or laying shit on thick just for it to be a ruse. I am not playing for what Brenda wants, I am playing for what I want.
And if I make it to final 4 or even F3 with a shot to win, I will still be proud with the game I played in this. I am pacing myself and playing the Sandra game a bit, but also just trying to play smart and loyal. I will get cutthroat in a round or two perhaps, but right now? No. It's not time.
