Sorry for the delay here, Helen. I suck, as usual. Plus, I really didn't have much to say before last night, not going to lie.
As for my thoughts on the last TC? Well, I think some of these people are idiots and disrespectful to the game and the other players by wanting to boot me and keeping fucking Sekou in this game. Nay gave me a heads up before PMs shut down that I was getting the votes and I should use my idol. I don't even know if she sent something to Brenda or what the fuck made Brenda give me immunity, but I was pleasently surprised and appreciated that so much. I know she has my back here and for her to do that, was just fucking amazing. I love her. <3
Right before that TC though, Yul agreed Sekou should leave. Katie told me it was Erinn or Sekou. Daniel told me it was Sekou. So Nay's message just made me think they were all lying. Including Alina. Like was she seriously going to vote for me over the goddamned inactive? What a fucking piece of shit.
And if it wasn't already clear, I cannot stand Alina or NaOnka, I don't care for Monica either and I think that I will hold some ill feelings for all three of them outside of this game for a bit after it. I can't help it. Especially with Nay, she told me the other day that she isn't afraid to play with me and is confident enough in here game that she can beat me.
I don't think she could. Not that I am making the end or anything, but if I lost this game to NaOnka, I'd probably shoot myself.
Then we have Alina and Monica. Both have been avoiding this board, yet Alina is insanely active other places. I love that the most, because this means I don't mind lying to Monica and it's clear she doesn't give me shit to work with. I know these fuckers mock my long PMs. But mine are game. Monica's have absolutely no workable substance and the TWO she's sent me since merge. Yes, only fucking two in over a week now. Have been so full of filler bullshit, I can't even..
Alina is different, I actually chewed her out in my reply, but she hasn't been on to see it yet. I hope she just cowars from it. Like she usually does when she's confronted. I guess we'll see..
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How do you plan on approaching keeping you and your allies safe this next round?
To answer this now, keeping myself safe isn't hard. I am immune.
And I am going to be a selfish bitch and not give it up. It's too risky for me to do. These people think I may have a HII. And will vote me to flush it. I am sure that's what Nay tried to do with her PM. It could have been both that and just to boot me.
As for keeping my allies safe. Right now, I am playing for Brenda and I. I want to play for Paloma too, I do. But I am not sure I can right now. As for Erinn? God I love Erinn, but she isn't coming around anymore. She hasn't been trying in this game since Refuge. I just don't know what else to do with her. :/ I feel like she checked out and I don't know how to work with that. There is no way to and that sucks.
All that said... There are actually developments gamewise here that may change the game up. And God, I am praying all this works. I am not going to lie, I was resolved to getting 10th/9th place here. I hadn't given up, but nothing was happening for me. UNTIL...
Brenda mentioned that Katie doesn't trust Alina and Nay. So I figured I would run with this and Nay's "warning PM" to me before TC and use that against her. I wrote to Katie and to Yul apologizing for my behavior in TC and telling them both it stemmed from a msg I got saying that everyone was lying to me and I was being voted out. Katie askd me who sent it, I told her Nay and then slightly threw a Laidlaw bus at Nay and Alina. I told her that they were telling me not to trust/talk to her and that she was a threat and this kind of thing. She came back asking me what I wanted to do in the game and that she wanted to change shit she didn't like. I proceeded to tell her they asked me to make a move with them on her.
All of that is pure lies. None of them have given me an inch to work with beyond saying they won't vote me. lol I don't feel bad about lying about them because apparently it's been their goal to smear my name and railroad me into not having the Seuuas trust or work with Brenda or I. So I don't regret any of the lies I am spewing. It's all game to me and I am in gamemode hardcore.
Katie came back with plans and shit she wants to do. I laid it on thick and agreed with everything and pushed a Paloma vote hardcore. I need to be clear here. I DO NOT WANT TO FUCK PALOMA OVER, IT WASN'T MY INTENTION TO DO THAT. I FUCKING LOVE HER. But when it comes to choosing between Paloma and myself, I choose myself every time.
I know it's what Katie wants, so I offered it up. And Brenda already told me we might have to push/lose Paloma tonight. So I wrote Yul to same outline and then Brenda decides she can't/won't vote or let go of Paloma or Erinn. :alien She still holds hope for a plan that I came up with about us making them split their votes for idol scare and having it be 4-4-3 where us 4 vote one of them and they split their shit. And then IF one of us has immunity,we break the tie and stay 4 strong into the Final 10. That is fucking impossible and I don't think it's going to work.
So now, Katie doesn't think Brenda trusts her. So now I need to push shit back on Erinn without looking shitty and shady. I don't fucking know. Brenda is a Goddess, but she's not being cutthroat now of all times, when I am. And this is actually more rare for me in open-id. I usually don't play so cutthroat, so I don't even know what's going to happen. Her side of it is saying that if Erinn leaves, the Chaang girls will think shit is still on the up and up. So maybe that will work. We'll see.
